Maybe it's because I'm the proud new owner of these......



but I managed to bust out 10.75 miles last Saturday. Miracles do happen. :)

Realization...... HUGE Realization

Two Saturdays ago I finally got up enough oomph and went for a long run. It only ended up being 7 miles. Yes, that is a long run these days. Since December I have been telling myself I was going to run the SLC Marathon this year. Even though training has been less than stellar, ummm way less than stellar, I still had managed to convince myself that I could still do it. However, when I ran that seven miles two Saturdays ago and nearly killed myself, I realized that there is NO WAY I'm going to be able to do the marathon. Just NO WAY. Am I disappointed in myself, TOTALLY. But I feel even worse that I have let Jen down. I have been hands down the worst running partner ever.

So, here's to rockin the half, and being more motivated in the future! (Sounds like you are already motivated to run the Minneapolis!)

Encouragement/Discouragement Requested

Well, this is a bit random, but has anyone ever run the Minneappolis Marathon? Husband and I are thinking of doing it.

Only problem is, well, it's May 31st and I have been training for the SLC half, and not very well at that. Think I could be ready by the end of May for the big one? I looked at the training schedule and it has 12 miles for next Saturday.... and the most I've run this training schedule is 6 miles, and that was 2, yes 2, weeks ago.

So, what do you think? Honestly...

Top 10 Reasons I'm Not Running a Marathon in April

Ok girls...so I have decided that I won't be able to run the marathon in April. Here are my top 10 Reasons to Not run a marathon in April.
10. I haven't trained since January.
9. I don't feel like having black toenails.
8. I have been super busy with work & kids.
7. My knees still bother me if I run longer than 5 miles.
6. My sister had surgery and I want to be able run with her.
5. I am lazy lately.
4. I went through a depression phase in my life.
3. My kids started basketball in Dec and I signed them up for Saturday games.
2. Started dating someone new.
1. Getting Married and going on a Honeymoon in April!!!

Fear...

I don't know what I've been scared of, but something has been stopping me from running. And the longer I went without my running routine, the more fear I had... and I became more and more worried that because I haven't been diligently running, when I finally did, it would be hard and I would get discouraged.

Well, I just got back from a short 4-miler and while I was a little more winded than I should have been, it certainly wasn't anything to be scared of.

Running for me is so much a mental game. If I'm having a rough week (as I have this past week), it effects my confidence running so much.

I won't say I'm completely back on the bandwagon, but I at least have one leg on. Hopefully the other leg will hop on tomorrow.

I suck. period.

Yep, I do. I really really really do. Ask me if I've been diligently training. I'd say no. Ask me how much I run every week lately. I'd say not nearly as much as I should be. Yep, I should get a big fat "L" tatooed on my forehead for "Loser" because basically, that's what I am. And not the cool kind like on the "Biggest Loser." I mean the kind that just sucks.

As typical with most losers, I could give you a gazillion reasons why I haven't been running well: moving, job stress, work schedule changes, life stress, lack of time, and the list could go on-- I'm quite creative. But basically, I've been in a major rut. MAJOR.

And the husband? He's basically kicking my trash. He ran 13 miles on Saturday morning. Ask me how many I ran. I'd say none. I can't believe I'm letting him beat me! Oh, how it kills me to write it-- I hate to get beaten by a boy. Ugh.

Now, all of this said, I am feeling a major motivating factor coming on-- my new home is right next to one super duper amazing trailhead-- with one super duper amazing trail.

So go on, kick me hard, right in the bum. I need it. And.......... go.